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Monday, July 2, 2007

kinda late already so will end it fast though!
kinda miss the love that my family once had! Before my grandma passed away, our family not only my family but all 6 uncles and 6 aunties of my father's family were like so bonded together. Eversince her death have been only known to all of us, problems already starting. Firstly it all started with my first uncle then slowly it started fading the bonds in the whole 12 family(11 to be exact as the 4th aunt was given away). Back to my point, if the love we once had between our families or just not be greedy but in my family i would be satisfied and happy enough. But my sister, recently have been throwing her tantrum around and i could not stand it all. I kept quiet at first but slowly it got worst by the day so i could not hold my anger and just spat her a lot of saliver on her.

In the end......................MY HATE IS GROWING IN BETWEEN MY OWN FAMILY IS GROWING!!!!. I was not even able to control it if only my family would stop fighting. I have been controlling my temper controlled by speeches everything, but it is still not enough because there never be a sound if only one hand clap.

Then now to friends, recently i felt that my true friends were never ever found or to say it even harsh. I dont have any at all. I have been cheated by friends times and times again. I had it enough with the sickening fate. Friends were never discover me as a caring guy but always thinks that IM ALWAYS THE NOISY AND EMBARRASSING ONE OUT OF THE GROUP!!! If i had only real good friends to call me to quiet down and keep me at my stable mood, I would have succeeded. But it can never work because nobody wanted to even send a little helping hand in reach to help me. IM TRYING MY BEST NOBODY IS HELPING NOBODY REALLY CARED ABOUT ME IF IF IF............. ALL I HAVE HOPE FOR MYSELF ARE IFs. No more enjoy and fun life for me if im not able to get a trust worthy friend at all forever if it continues on.

Then recently myself been already found that my heart for this two years have changed because i dont have the want to look for stead already. I felt that im happy without worries to look for a steady because at times having a stead may be good but at times it always makes things worst by the dozen. But the feeling of being loved really is enjoyable.

AND NOW IS MY DAD STILL NOT GIVING ME THE TRUST THAT I HAVE BEEN EARNING!!!!! I JUST ASKED HIM TO LET ME TO HOLD ON MY POCKET MONEY FOR THE WHOLE WEEK!!!!!! AND HE JUST REPIED NO NO NO. WHAT IS THE HELL WRONG WITH HIM! AND JUST TO LET YOU KNOW HOW PATHETIC I AM IN MY LIFE LETS SAY ONLY ABOUT POCKET MONEY! GUESS WHO HOLDS MY POCKETS MONEY FOR ME? IF U CAN NEVER GUESSED IT, IS MY YOUNGER SISTER. YESH I AM NOT LYING IT IS TRUE SHE HOLDS FOR ME BECAUSE I DID HAD A VERY SPENDTHRIFT PERSON BUT I HAVE BEEN CHANGING ON MY MONEY SPENDING HABITS. BUT HOW IN THE WORLD WOULD I EVER GET MY OWN POCKET MONEY AND CONTROLLING AND USING AND MANAGING IT MYSELF WHEN I DONT GET THE MONEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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